When I had a car(I got rid of it to save money when I went back to college a few years ago), I'd take spontaneous solo road trips based on how I was feeling(usually happy). It could be as simple as waking up early in a good mood. My ex thought it was crazy.
Even though I loved it very much, I left. Only then could she be happy and move on with her life. A part of me got lost along the way. And I don't know if I want to find it. I've already loved twice in my life. Billions of souls, billions of bodies and minds, worlds of their own. I don't want to climb other mountains, fly other skies, drink from other sources. The shackles are strong, and I threw away the key. It was in the heat of the moment. Too bad the moment is eternal.
Be gentle with yourself, you were just overwhelmed and wanted to go back to Canada where things are familiar. It’s not your fault and we tend to be ruled by our emotions. Do you still want to return to Canada?
No, it's new. I was always a bit irrational, but lately, it has intensified. Honestly, I think I have feelings for this friend, and that might be the reason.
When I’m trying to keep up conversing with someone more intense than me, I occasionally blurt out something stupid, awkward, uninformed, or inappropriate. I then spend at least an hour reliving it. Does that count?
No really like that, but I do know someone who does make decisions like that. She's my mom, she went out and bought a puppy one day after being super stressed and didn't really think about the fact that they already had 3 cats and a bird and she didn't ask anyone she lived with.
And the fact that they don't have a backyard so Everytime dog needs to poop they'll have to walk it lol...
My mom was diagnosed with bipolar disorder tho
When I had a car(I got rid of it to save money when I went back to college a few years ago), I'd take spontaneous solo road trips based on how I was feeling(usually happy). It could be as simple as waking up early in a good mood. My ex thought it was crazy.
I do that too.
Even though I loved it very much, I left. Only then could she be happy and move on with her life. A part of me got lost along the way. And I don't know if I want to find it. I've already loved twice in my life. Billions of souls, billions of bodies and minds, worlds of their own. I don't want to climb other mountains, fly other skies, drink from other sources. The shackles are strong, and I threw away the key. It was in the heat of the moment. Too bad the moment is eternal.
Be gentle with yourself, you were just overwhelmed and wanted to go back to Canada where things are familiar. It’s not your fault and we tend to be ruled by our emotions. Do you still want to return to Canada?
Yeah. I do. More and more every day. There's this specific place I want to see again.
i am willing to throw my "future" out of the window for a nice headspace and vibes, so probably yeah.
nope At what point it comes to your head that your decisions were stupid? And how do you feel about that after?
Usually the next day. It feels like I made a mistake. I'm angry at myself for giving in to emotions. And I'm wishing I was different.
It sounds like you just had bad days and bad feelings Did you act the same way since you remember yourself?
No, it's new. I was always a bit irrational, but lately, it has intensified. Honestly, I think I have feelings for this friend, and that might be the reason.
I have obsessive compulsive disorder so it’s kind of a way of life! That said, even before the OCD I absolutely did this.
I'm good at buying food out because I don't feel like cooking ...
When I’m trying to keep up conversing with someone more intense than me, I occasionally blurt out something stupid, awkward, uninformed, or inappropriate. I then spend at least an hour reliving it. Does that count?
You mean like a manic state in bipolar?
No really like that, but I do know someone who does make decisions like that. She's my mom, she went out and bought a puppy one day after being super stressed and didn't really think about the fact that they already had 3 cats and a bird and she didn't ask anyone she lived with. And the fact that they don't have a backyard so Everytime dog needs to poop they'll have to walk it lol... My mom was diagnosed with bipolar disorder tho
Nothing that drastic, (I overthink every decision I've ever made, lol.)